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how do I describe my feelings?
mixed, sinusoidal, suicidal
empty, filled, none
I don’t believe in magic
as John may have said
neither in Jesus nor in miracles
chance maybe

redirection in every aspect
redesign in every corner
rethink in every word
rewrite every belief
is there any?

floating and drinking
complaining and mocking myself
and every synthetic smile around
every fake gesture
every lie
hover over the cloud
of the purple haze of my mind

I found myself alone,
in the lonely heat of Tehran
lost and lonely

just like the moment before the tunnel

Payman
July 1st, 2014